I’ve
been seeing my counselor a bit more lately.
The addition of a second child combined with the pressures of life has
really thrown me for a loop. One way
this imbalance rears its ugly head is in my anger. Not making excuses, but I come from a long
line of bad tempers on both sides of my family.
Because of this, anger is usually one of the first signs that my life is
off kilter. On a side note, when I say
anger I don’t mean the emotion per say, rather I’m speaking of the almost
unquenchable desire to hit inanimate objects (usually a wall). So needless to say a trip to the counselor
was needed.
One
of the surprising things that came from a session was that people who have anxiety
disorders (the reason I see a counselor in the first place) tend to have
trouble with anger as well. The two are
interrelated. I left that appointment
oddly encouraged by the fact that so many of my problems are interrelated. In opening up my web of dysfunction I at
least could understand myself a bit better.
Along with this I was given a personal understanding of Luther’s breakthrough
insight to the human condition: Simul Iustus et Peccator (Simultaneously just
and a sinner at the same time). In other
words, as a result of my extensive web of dysfunction, it’s only because of God’s
declaration of Christ’s righteousness upon me that I have any chance in
life.